I Run for Fun, Not to Be Killed. Sunday April 21, 2013, I Am Supposed to Run the London Marathon!

I did not sleep well last night. I tossed and turned about the Boston Marathon bombing. The images and videos playing in my dreams. It was terrible. I am suppose to be running in the London Marathon this Sunday April 21, 2013. My wife asked me if I am still going this morning. And for the first time in three years, I want to quit before I even start. I said, " I don't know, maybe?" 

I am sickened and sad about the injuries and deaths caused by the bombing. I could have been there and that makes it more personal. I can't see how they can secure these races. There are 26.2 miles in a marathon. There are tens of thousands of people involved. It's not an easy task to keep these races safe from crazy people.

I must admit this Boston bombing has taken the fun out of wanting to run. Part of me wants to say, "I am not going to let crazy people stop me from enjoying my hobby." And yet, it's a thought to run the London Marathon. I have nothing to prove. Why take the risk? I run for fun, not to get killed. I know if I do run, when I approach the London Marathon finish line this Sunday, I will be a little bit scared at the finish line.

How can you not be? It was just like after 911 when I would fly. I would board the plane looking at everyone with the attitude don't anyone make any crazy moves or its "go time!" I was ready to do whatever it took to save my life and those around me. That is what bothers me about this run for me. I am concerned about the crazies. I feel my life maybe in danger. In the beginning, when I was fatter, I would run thinking, I might have a heart attack -take it easy Russ. Now, I have to worry about bombs. I don't have to run. 

I want to run marathons. I really love running. But it’s only a hobby, it's not worth being blown up over. And I don't want to see anyone hurt or blown up. I am scheduled for the Peachtree 10K this July; it's the largest 10K in the world. I will be running with 65,000 friends of mine for a T shirt and a PR. It's not fair! That I have to be scared and afraid of crazy people. It's not fair that I have to worry about flying and now running a marathon too. It's just not right! It's not FAIR! It's not the American way of life I want to live. It's Not Fair! And that makes me MAD!!!

I am going to run my marathons, and I am going to keep flying! I won't allow this to stop me. But, sadly, I won't invite my grandchildren or family to see me finish. I can't take that risk and that makes me sad. I can't run for fun anymore. I now run for a Purpose! I now run in protest against terrorist, heart disease, crazy bombers and Bullies! I am dedicating my London Marathon run in honor of those runners killed and hurt at Boston bombing. 

I am going to keep running for my charities and disabled children who can't. I am going to keep running for those who were killed or hurt in Boston. It's my right, and I won't let terrorist or crazy bombers bully me. I hate bullies. I don't like being scared, and I don’t want to be brave or foolish. I just won't be bullied! So, London Marathon here I come. I am running and I am finishing the race if it kills me!

I pray that won’t happen and that everyone will be safe. I am sure London authorities are taking the appropriate measures to insure everyone’s safety. Regardless, I won't be bullied! And yes, I will be running with my eyes open and the attitude, its “go time!”

Wish me luck, 

Russ