Since I was a little girl, God was always a priority in my upbringing. However, as I grew up, I realized throughout my journey that I didn’t have any faith. Luckily, I had a joyful childhood but once I became an adult and bad as well as unexpected things started to happen to me, my relationship with God was not the same anymore. Even though I resisted each one of my circumstances, feeling like a victim and wondering why I was being punished; I learned that those crisis were lessons to teach me that while I was feeling comfortable and safe, I was taking my whole life for granted.
Although, I claimed my relationship with God was my priority; I was fooling myself. There was too much fear disrupting my inner peace; blocking the love that resides within me. During that time when I struggled, resisting those changes, there were days when I felt angry and disconnected with the entire world. I didn't understand that because I had decided that my spiritual growth was going to be my priority, a battle between my ego and my internal demons was creating resistance. For a little while, I gave all power and control to my ego feeling more miserable and hopeless than ever.
One night, during my sleep, I heard my higher self telling me that everything that is happening to me is for my highest good. “It is too complicated for you to understand the whys, so why don’t you just enjoy the ride and believe that those events don’t have to be painful? If you want your life to change, start with changing your perception.” As I heard these words, I remembered the joy that resonated in this message.
I was told that it was my choice to come to this world and live this life. My higher self assured me that I was warned that some of these lessons would be hard; however I joyfully insisted in going through each one of them because at the end I knew that they would help me to become who I must. I can handle them because I won't be alone; my inner voice told me I said.
“So what happened to me?” I asked confused.
“You forgot.” My inner voice replied.
“What did I forget?”
“The reason why you are here”.
I was reminded that as spiritual beings, we took physical form and came to this life with a purpose. Regardless God is always inside of us, we become separated when we identify with our human aspect and forget our true essence. Our powerful egos want total control of our thoughts, always looking for ways to keep us in a state of fear. Instead of listening our intuition, we hear a scornful and nagging chat that is continuously instigating resistance.
“Don’t fight the what is anymore. Remember that it was you the one who decided to go through it.” I heard in my dream.
The following morning, as I clearly remembered my dream, I got up feeling happy because I was reminded once again that the what is was already my decision. By changing my perception, I feel joy instead of pain; therefore instead of resisting each one of my circurmstances, I am grateful for the divine order that I see in my life.